I'm like leaning on the door in this train with people around me and no earphones. I lost three ear phones the past month.

That aside I've been busy. I'm always busy. I was interviewing 23 people for two positions for the company. There are still no seats around. Wait there's one. Oh it's taken

Anyway I made up my mind to hire this one person only for the girl to withdraw her application because she will be overseas two years later and it will be unfair to her. Next inline is a 44year old guy. Interesting uh

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Im in the car now feeling rather loose. One of my best friends just passed his license but well his driver skills should be more relaxed.

I'm surviving in this weird life of mine. Somehow I feel abut lonely.

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Well I'm in the train now coughing away because of me rushing off a cigarette minutes ago.

It has been awhile since I blogged. Well, it was an emotional roller coaster ride and is still is.

Working two jobs and studying two diploma is no joke. Recently the company has reached 100k$ in confirmed grants. Now I can feel progress. Like what one of my board members said to me recently, "Faris you has past the main challenge and now it is more smooth sailing". Imagine working for 6months and not getting paid and even more ambiguous, there is no certainty on how it will developed. Alhamdulilah.

I just received a call from a journalist who wants to meet me tommorrow. Hopefully it will help what I'm doing.

Internship is good because it has a degree of flexibility that can be positively manipulated. I have many meetings and escape for lunch meetings. But i can sense that im rather well liked by my collagues there? I think so? The manager said faris, you cute lah and frequently call mr sayang. Okay it can be rather freaky at times. They still dont kbow about ny other life. After my intern life ends for the day at 6pm my CEO position causes me to have schedule till 10pm each day? No complains?

You know that song from rem called losing my religion. I can admit that I've not be the best of Muslims. I stopped praying or well it is rather I'm having a break? I smoke almost a pack each day. Earlier the year it was 3days one pack. Oh yes, how can I forget this: I I recently drank my first bottle of coke in two years. Calories! Well, I haven't been paid yet but I will be. At least 2.5k it is funny because technically I'm hiring 4 staff And their salaries are secured.

Well when it comes to matters of the heart? That is a big question mark. My ex said I approach girls like how I approach work. Not my fault rite?

Anyway, that aside..things are going better for me. I hope. Insyallah.

As my mum says Faris push himself too much.

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Well I'm in the train now coughing away because of me rushing off a cigarette minutes ago.

It has been awhile since I blogged. Well, it was an emotional roller coaster ride and is still is.

Working two jobs and studying two diploma is no joke. Recently the company has reached 100k$ in confirmed grants. Now I can feel progress. Like what one of my board members said to me recently, "Faris you has past the main challenge and now it is more smooth sailing". Imagine working for 6months and not getting paid and even more ambiguous, there is no certainty on how it will developed. Alhamdulilah.

I just received a call from a journalist who wants to meet me tommorrow. Hopefully it will help what I'm doing.

Internship is good because it has a degree of flexibility that can be positively manipulated

Thanks and regards: Faris
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I want a girl who i buy clothes for from Paragon

I want a girl who will comment on perfumes with my mum

I want a girl who I can bring to fancy events

I want a girl who eat with me while I attend dinner invites at hotels

I want a girl who I can drive her around just to feel her presence beside me

I want a girl who I spend late nights with but do nothing

I want a girl who is by my side when i make speeches so i do it with a smile

I want a girl who I can be faithful with
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I need a girl who will love me.

My emotions are like a roller coaster. The funniest of things is me feeling a day after I was so weeeeheeee.

Sunday was good as I managed to have a spontaneous date with a stranger. A few years older than me she is but well she don't know. It was a good date. I know her ages ago but never really chatted or met. Monday I was irritated with the blues. Tuesday was so nice, I cried 4 times because of a roleplay exercise where an airplane crash. There was three main actors. I alqays wanted to try acting. Moreover I managed to get two numbers. The next day I took the car and drove one of them to jewelbox. Now todday I'm feeling irritated. See see. My emotions are fickle. About farrah, it is just an infatuation.

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my goals

well i managed to find a smoke partner at the launch of nationalyouthforum which was the senior asst director of nyc. i was like telling her about the pros and cons of my life. but well, we talk about my goals in life. anyway, you know i am very involved in the community. i did not ask to be nor did i have a pre plan of my progess. it was when i am involved, the directions developed accordingly.

i wanted to do a major project before i was 21 and start a company when im 21. that is accomplished one year before. now my goal is to earn a $3 k monthly salary before i am 21 and earn my first million for the company at age 21. by 24, ill enter a local uni or a wow foreign university. 27 i want to get married. ambition is to be a csr consultant. csr means corporate social responsibility.

11k from nAtional arts council is here. Wee. Honestly I am dead tired. I so wanna get loose. I'm in the bus home. Well I had a lunch mtg with martin executive director of halogen foundation. It was more of me catching up with an ally in the company's objectives. Night was spent with my accts manager to go through finance. I'm really brain dead. You know .. In this pursuit, you get to meet all kind of people. I'm touched at some people's sincerity.

Anyway I was in a mtg 2days and my nice ex commented on my status shout out of Faris need to go gym to be healthy. I knew abt it from my email but was not able to delete the comment via my phone. She said it is because you Faris smokes too much. I SMS her saying you crazy in talk about my smoking in a public space. She then said well Faris should accept reality. She eventually deleted it though.

To think about it, I'm smoking more. Almost 1 pack a day. Nooooo

What should I do?

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weee. i can now play golf or bowl using my iphone. super cool rite.

anyway, i just reached home about 1/2hr ago. i had a meeting with my artistic board members which adjourned to starbucks. kinda funny, Alvin is in his 40s and Erzan in his 30s while me 20s. i just found out that erzan was the only malay muslim that won the UOB painter of the year ever. we discussed about potential chairman for the company.

Oh ya im feeling wacky because ive received confirmation for $35,000 wah wah wah... That settles the salary of two of my staff for 6months while $40k from nyc will settle the remaining 6months.

that being said, i just received a nomination to attend a 6months long Professional Diploma in Creative Entrepreneurship.

imcomplete

Okay here goes.

As my eyes lay on the computer screen remnants of the past still haunts.

in the bus hours ago, i sighted a familiar face but in a younger body. gosh she looks like hazirah. i use her name so bluntly because you, the readers, know i have not move on. is there a need to be hush hush? she was my first love. i was crazy over her. it has been years. i dont love her anymore and im pretty i don't? I have these many unanswered questions. Let me talk to her face2face. I remember i did not talk to shaikh for about an hour because he did not tell me that he saw her !

I'm still angry at nabil because he is playing ignorance....

putting my denial aside. working two jobs is not an easy task. internship. my company. headache.
my friday nite is crazy. going home on saturday 7am.

on a lighter note. my parents know about farrah. well, 7 more years. 7more years. well, for those who do not know. farrah is this girl that my infatuated at to be married to and my parents know about it. you want the full story ask me. thinking of farrah makes thinking of hazirah go away.

Morning greetings to the avid readers of this simple expeesssion of thoughts. My name is faris. I will not put my full name as google search already consists of too much info.

We are in the spirit of Eid fitr. Howver to the dismay of my wallet, I've only been to 1 house of a relative after the 1st day. I feel so tired physically and mentally. My daily schedule is waking up by 8 to take the 810 bus. I have to succum to reading today newpaper on my phone each morning while I'm on the bus.

On a lighter note, you know about that proposal I had to transform a public walkway into a walkthrough art gallery. Well, it is confirmed already. Finnally. My schedule is fully fweled this week with many. Lunch meetings.

I was talking to the ex yesterday. The nice one but also the one I won't be attached with. Faris approach to girls is the same as work. Too much passion. Haha.

There is this Arab clique which I m rather close to currently. We took photos and one really looked like we are from the sitcom friends. Haha. Well it is at facebook.

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What a day on Friday. Took the car and had many meetings which ended about 11ish. Spontaneously a sahor outing was planed. It started at 12 and ended at 6.

3 guys and a girl.

Tamp-Pasir ris-Amk-East-Coast-Geylang-Kallang-Geylang-Desker,Dempsey,Mt sophia, Mt
emily, Bencoolen, Amk, East coast, Tamp, Pr

Enjoy the crunchy bite of succulent Ramly burger at Kallang Waterfront just beside the dead Oasis restaurant. Ahead our eyes were the glittering rays of the world largest observation wheel and the lights from the city. We managed to study about the world’s oldest profession while the car was making circles. After that, we headed to places of romance like the hills of sparkling Dempsey. Next was Mount Sophia and Emily Hill before Sahor at Bencolen. In that transition we rested at vibrant clark quey and orchard.

I was nice outing as i needed a brain off work but we went home to chaos. Next week jb.

My stomach is feeling weird as I await the break of dawn. My stomach gave way twice today and minutes ago. That caused an overpowering pain on my throat. Puke.

I was having a night out with a close guy buddy of mine. I began throwing a fit and French fries flew to his direction. He informed that he met my ex girlfriend. My. First love. It was at a usual Arab gathering 2 months back and he only had a 30sec encounter with her before he had to leave.

During thatnight I was having weird silences through out. He asked whether it would help if he started talking bad things abt her. I said it doesn't matter if she sleeps around. I don't care. Once again:if .I think I still have many unanswered questions. 2 months back I heard this weird rumor that she escalated a conflict recently. I'm immuned lah.

On a lighter sight of things, I was at the Arab assc yesterday. Mind you I did not sleep for 38hrs. I met this dr mattar person who shall not be fully named. Who knows if the gift has google alerts for their past ministers name. Anyway the conversation I had with him was better than any politician I've met. I really like the way he gave me fullest attention in the 20 about mins spontaneous standing conversation. It was with much respect. I was telling about the company and all then I was telling why not I showed some pictures instead. Out goes the iPhone. Zainul who was near by came to look at it. Haha iPhone

Back to the conversation of me not sleeping. I was so darn tired. When I was on the wheels driving dad home, I was such a good driver. Initially I thought of asking him to drive. When you are positive it feels good.

Also I have vbeen talking on the phone alot lately. Surprisingly it is with this 2 attached girls. Somehow it was without any intent of impressing or was it about chasing but rather just to have nice conversations. One of them was saying she envy my lifestyle, achievements etc. I told her I envy hers. The ability to sleep without worry and having someone who loves you. On the topic if deathsticks. I told about cigarettes provided the internal comfort while iPhone allowed me to operate. Iphone again. Anyway It is not easy to have some one to just talk to. You cab talk to just anyway but enjoying it is totally different. It reminds me that im not that socially deprived after all. I just don't have a girlfriend. I just have my bear bear which I stole from mummy.

When you are positive it feels good despite yr health

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my attempts to manipulate the versatility of my phone has allow me now many benefits. Brush up my Arabic skills is one of them. I have a learn Chinese application too. On top of that i'm actually blogging now using my phone woohoo

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