I'm like leaning on the door in this train with people around me and no earphones. I lost three ear phones the past month.

That aside I've been busy. I'm always busy. I was interviewing 23 people for two positions for the company. There are still no seats around. Wait there's one. Oh it's taken

Anyway I made up my mind to hire this one person only for the girl to withdraw her application because she will be overseas two years later and it will be unfair to her. Next inline is a 44year old guy. Interesting uh

Thanks and regards: Faris
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Im in the car now feeling rather loose. One of my best friends just passed his license but well his driver skills should be more relaxed.

I'm surviving in this weird life of mine. Somehow I feel abut lonely.

Thanks and regards: Faris
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Well I'm in the train now coughing away because of me rushing off a cigarette minutes ago.

It has been awhile since I blogged. Well, it was an emotional roller coaster ride and is still is.

Working two jobs and studying two diploma is no joke. Recently the company has reached 100k$ in confirmed grants. Now I can feel progress. Like what one of my board members said to me recently, "Faris you has past the main challenge and now it is more smooth sailing". Imagine working for 6months and not getting paid and even more ambiguous, there is no certainty on how it will developed. Alhamdulilah.

I just received a call from a journalist who wants to meet me tommorrow. Hopefully it will help what I'm doing.

Internship is good because it has a degree of flexibility that can be positively manipulated. I have many meetings and escape for lunch meetings. But i can sense that im rather well liked by my collagues there? I think so? The manager said faris, you cute lah and frequently call mr sayang. Okay it can be rather freaky at times. They still dont kbow about ny other life. After my intern life ends for the day at 6pm my CEO position causes me to have schedule till 10pm each day? No complains?

You know that song from rem called losing my religion. I can admit that I've not be the best of Muslims. I stopped praying or well it is rather I'm having a break? I smoke almost a pack each day. Earlier the year it was 3days one pack. Oh yes, how can I forget this: I I recently drank my first bottle of coke in two years. Calories! Well, I haven't been paid yet but I will be. At least 2.5k it is funny because technically I'm hiring 4 staff And their salaries are secured.

Well when it comes to matters of the heart? That is a big question mark. My ex said I approach girls like how I approach work. Not my fault rite?

Anyway, that aside..things are going better for me. I hope. Insyallah.

As my mum says Faris push himself too much.

Latest

Well I'm in the train now coughing away because of me rushing off a cigarette minutes ago.

It has been awhile since I blogged. Well, it was an emotional roller coaster ride and is still is.

Working two jobs and studying two diploma is no joke. Recently the company has reached 100k$ in confirmed grants. Now I can feel progress. Like what one of my board members said to me recently, "Faris you has past the main challenge and now it is more smooth sailing". Imagine working for 6months and not getting paid and even more ambiguous, there is no certainty on how it will developed. Alhamdulilah.

I just received a call from a journalist who wants to meet me tommorrow. Hopefully it will help what I'm doing.

Internship is good because it has a degree of flexibility that can be positively manipulated

Thanks and regards: Faris
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I want a girl who i buy clothes for from Paragon

I want a girl who will comment on perfumes with my mum

I want a girl who I can bring to fancy events

I want a girl who eat with me while I attend dinner invites at hotels

I want a girl who I can drive her around just to feel her presence beside me

I want a girl who I spend late nights with but do nothing

I want a girl who is by my side when i make speeches so i do it with a smile

I want a girl who I can be faithful with
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I need a girl who will love me.

My emotions are like a roller coaster. The funniest of things is me feeling a day after I was so weeeeheeee.

Sunday was good as I managed to have a spontaneous date with a stranger. A few years older than me she is but well she don't know. It was a good date. I know her ages ago but never really chatted or met. Monday I was irritated with the blues. Tuesday was so nice, I cried 4 times because of a roleplay exercise where an airplane crash. There was three main actors. I alqays wanted to try acting. Moreover I managed to get two numbers. The next day I took the car and drove one of them to jewelbox. Now todday I'm feeling irritated. See see. My emotions are fickle. About farrah, it is just an infatuation.

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my goals

well i managed to find a smoke partner at the launch of nationalyouthforum which was the senior asst director of nyc. i was like telling her about the pros and cons of my life. but well, we talk about my goals in life. anyway, you know i am very involved in the community. i did not ask to be nor did i have a pre plan of my progess. it was when i am involved, the directions developed accordingly.

i wanted to do a major project before i was 21 and start a company when im 21. that is accomplished one year before. now my goal is to earn a $3 k monthly salary before i am 21 and earn my first million for the company at age 21. by 24, ill enter a local uni or a wow foreign university. 27 i want to get married. ambition is to be a csr consultant. csr means corporate social responsibility.

11k from nAtional arts council is here. Wee. Honestly I am dead tired. I so wanna get loose. I'm in the bus home. Well I had a lunch mtg with martin executive director of halogen foundation. It was more of me catching up with an ally in the company's objectives. Night was spent with my accts manager to go through finance. I'm really brain dead. You know .. In this pursuit, you get to meet all kind of people. I'm touched at some people's sincerity.

Anyway I was in a mtg 2days and my nice ex commented on my status shout out of Faris need to go gym to be healthy. I knew abt it from my email but was not able to delete the comment via my phone. She said it is because you Faris smokes too much. I SMS her saying you crazy in talk about my smoking in a public space. She then said well Faris should accept reality. She eventually deleted it though.

To think about it, I'm smoking more. Almost 1 pack a day. Nooooo

What should I do?

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weee. i can now play golf or bowl using my iphone. super cool rite.

anyway, i just reached home about 1/2hr ago. i had a meeting with my artistic board members which adjourned to starbucks. kinda funny, Alvin is in his 40s and Erzan in his 30s while me 20s. i just found out that erzan was the only malay muslim that won the UOB painter of the year ever. we discussed about potential chairman for the company.

Oh ya im feeling wacky because ive received confirmation for $35,000 wah wah wah... That settles the salary of two of my staff for 6months while $40k from nyc will settle the remaining 6months.

that being said, i just received a nomination to attend a 6months long Professional Diploma in Creative Entrepreneurship.

imcomplete

Okay here goes.

As my eyes lay on the computer screen remnants of the past still haunts.

in the bus hours ago, i sighted a familiar face but in a younger body. gosh she looks like hazirah. i use her name so bluntly because you, the readers, know i have not move on. is there a need to be hush hush? she was my first love. i was crazy over her. it has been years. i dont love her anymore and im pretty i don't? I have these many unanswered questions. Let me talk to her face2face. I remember i did not talk to shaikh for about an hour because he did not tell me that he saw her !

I'm still angry at nabil because he is playing ignorance....

putting my denial aside. working two jobs is not an easy task. internship. my company. headache.
my friday nite is crazy. going home on saturday 7am.

on a lighter note. my parents know about farrah. well, 7 more years. 7more years. well, for those who do not know. farrah is this girl that my infatuated at to be married to and my parents know about it. you want the full story ask me. thinking of farrah makes thinking of hazirah go away.

Morning greetings to the avid readers of this simple expeesssion of thoughts. My name is faris. I will not put my full name as google search already consists of too much info.

We are in the spirit of Eid fitr. Howver to the dismay of my wallet, I've only been to 1 house of a relative after the 1st day. I feel so tired physically and mentally. My daily schedule is waking up by 8 to take the 810 bus. I have to succum to reading today newpaper on my phone each morning while I'm on the bus.

On a lighter note, you know about that proposal I had to transform a public walkway into a walkthrough art gallery. Well, it is confirmed already. Finnally. My schedule is fully fweled this week with many. Lunch meetings.

I was talking to the ex yesterday. The nice one but also the one I won't be attached with. Faris approach to girls is the same as work. Too much passion. Haha.

There is this Arab clique which I m rather close to currently. We took photos and one really looked like we are from the sitcom friends. Haha. Well it is at facebook.

Thanks and regards: Faris
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What a day on Friday. Took the car and had many meetings which ended about 11ish. Spontaneously a sahor outing was planed. It started at 12 and ended at 6.

3 guys and a girl.

Tamp-Pasir ris-Amk-East-Coast-Geylang-Kallang-Geylang-Desker,Dempsey,Mt sophia, Mt
emily, Bencoolen, Amk, East coast, Tamp, Pr

Enjoy the crunchy bite of succulent Ramly burger at Kallang Waterfront just beside the dead Oasis restaurant. Ahead our eyes were the glittering rays of the world largest observation wheel and the lights from the city. We managed to study about the world’s oldest profession while the car was making circles. After that, we headed to places of romance like the hills of sparkling Dempsey. Next was Mount Sophia and Emily Hill before Sahor at Bencolen. In that transition we rested at vibrant clark quey and orchard.

I was nice outing as i needed a brain off work but we went home to chaos. Next week jb.

My stomach is feeling weird as I await the break of dawn. My stomach gave way twice today and minutes ago. That caused an overpowering pain on my throat. Puke.

I was having a night out with a close guy buddy of mine. I began throwing a fit and French fries flew to his direction. He informed that he met my ex girlfriend. My. First love. It was at a usual Arab gathering 2 months back and he only had a 30sec encounter with her before he had to leave.

During thatnight I was having weird silences through out. He asked whether it would help if he started talking bad things abt her. I said it doesn't matter if she sleeps around. I don't care. Once again:if .I think I still have many unanswered questions. 2 months back I heard this weird rumor that she escalated a conflict recently. I'm immuned lah.

On a lighter sight of things, I was at the Arab assc yesterday. Mind you I did not sleep for 38hrs. I met this dr mattar person who shall not be fully named. Who knows if the gift has google alerts for their past ministers name. Anyway the conversation I had with him was better than any politician I've met. I really like the way he gave me fullest attention in the 20 about mins spontaneous standing conversation. It was with much respect. I was telling about the company and all then I was telling why not I showed some pictures instead. Out goes the iPhone. Zainul who was near by came to look at it. Haha iPhone

Back to the conversation of me not sleeping. I was so darn tired. When I was on the wheels driving dad home, I was such a good driver. Initially I thought of asking him to drive. When you are positive it feels good.

Also I have vbeen talking on the phone alot lately. Surprisingly it is with this 2 attached girls. Somehow it was without any intent of impressing or was it about chasing but rather just to have nice conversations. One of them was saying she envy my lifestyle, achievements etc. I told her I envy hers. The ability to sleep without worry and having someone who loves you. On the topic if deathsticks. I told about cigarettes provided the internal comfort while iPhone allowed me to operate. Iphone again. Anyway It is not easy to have some one to just talk to. You cab talk to just anyway but enjoying it is totally different. It reminds me that im not that socially deprived after all. I just don't have a girlfriend. I just have my bear bear which I stole from mummy.

When you are positive it feels good despite yr health

Thanks and regards: Faris
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my attempts to manipulate the versatility of my phone has allow me now many benefits. Brush up my Arabic skills is one of them. I have a learn Chinese application too. On top of that i'm actually blogging now using my phone woohoo

Thanks and regards: Faris
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Thanks and regards: Faris
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Dearest soul,

I write to you as a form of refuge for my sins and racing emotions that breath the air of confusion.

Recently, i have been unfaithful with a distraction that cast my mind aside. Technology advances lingers on my fingertips. She captures my sight. Ring my hears with melodies and allow me to really communicate. I love iphone.

I was at vivo with family during mid day. Bought some shirts amounting to $200 at Domanchi after buffet lunch at Go India for 6. I had to disappeared to settle some accounts before returning and passing my mum $500. I drove the way back and well, the worse people in the car is family. Since then, my hands were seducing the touch screen of my phone.

Okay lah. I was downloading so many applications and did some online shopping for it. My phone has every text of Shakespeare as well as this Art Gallery in the phone that depict wonders of Davinci and Picasso and 100 other artists.

Breakfast of a blind and La vie very very nice

hey goes. i feel liberated as school is like technically over. 5 exams in one week, what a week indeed. well, i met up with an investor on Monday who is willing to invest about 100k in the company. not 100% confirm so no point of jumping for joy. but i bought a pack of Next Chill Menthol to reward myself. somthing about that death stick is that it numbs the body and so very addictive. can smoke and smoke without feeling the body cannot taking it. true enough i finished a pack that day that well, my lungs keep on coughing. it cough so very much. ouch ouch ouch.

i have a meeting next week with Emily Hill, im looking forward to it though. It's so nice, that place especially for a new office space. anyway, im never at the office.

I met up with the ex-girlfriend few hours ago. well, she is the recent one and it kills the statement that ex-couples cannot be friends. we are on very good terms but know we wont be back together. anyway, memories of my first love keep on stringing in my mind. im not in contact with her though. or rather, she refused to be.

yesterday i was abit irritated because i cant use this new phone of mine. I love my PhONE. I like melodies, emails and photography on my PHONE. The problem with this new IPHONE is that i cant use it at all. it is on my table but requires a Singtel line. My contract from Starhub expired but i need to port the same number. technically, it can only be used on 5th sep. i cannot change my hp number. this reminds me of me having 6email addresses that is connected by one. so difficult right. i sometime wish to run away and vanish from these many responsibilities.

my mum was trying to be manja with me just now. she was saying that she spent the whole yesterday for me. to settle my phone issues. she asked whether i will do such a love felt act like that for her. i replied by stating hey im a good son who shower her alot. when she tired from work a day recently, on her dressing table were some candles with a cheesecake. and also, once she was reading the papers and it was covering her face. i put juice in one of our crystal glasses and place it on the table beside her to surprise her. see im not a bad guy.

okay my last stick is finishing. nite nite.

Hello the single digit number of people who knows about this personal space of mine.

Song of the day- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3koG3tZt5zA&feature=related

Well then. I’m at this waiting stage of many proposals. To think about it, these proposals are worth more than 700k but well, I cant do anything now but just wait for the many government organizations to get back to us. waiting is so irritating.

I am having a fever. Well, I get sick so easily these days. It is so irritating you know when one nostril is block and a minute later it is the other. Where is that tissue and medicine of mine?

VSG sms me. make my day.

In my life i always told myself to blog but what happened? well, victim of procrastination perhaps i was.

well here goes.

A day in the life. on saturday night i ditched attending an art auction. Im not gonna bid for anything but wanted to see how it was like. Instead I was at the floating platform enjoying the rhymes of classics in modern voices. It was a tribute concert for the Beatles and also a charity fundraiser. I was seated in the front 2 rows. It was at an invitation and why not rite?

Yesterday. I received an email about some profiles of some budding artists and i checked one out. This one I found rather interesting. The female shoes are lovely. http://rabbiteur.blogspot.com/search/label/shoes

All you need is love. I just finished running about in the house. I need to work out to complement the effects of nicotine. It makes me look older. But on the other hand, without cigarettes i have nothing. i was having a brief casual chat just now on the phone. The topic was about this girl I was supposed to watch a performance with. She was supposed to buy the tickets so i passed her $300. Well, she became untraceable. wtf. I lazy to chase i lazy to chase. I used to camouflage my brain with that ill confide with matchmaking. But the actual fact is it is up to me. Perhaps my disillusion at it shows my inability to find someone?

Can't buy me love. In my last entry I was talking about me giving a speech about matchmaking and that love does not exist. am hypocritical to say such a thing? The speech was to entertain and get good grades. full stop.

Hey jude. On friday night, i gave Miss Ong a phone call of congratulations. She is gonna be the company's Admin Mgr. Don't let me down. One of the job scope include being my PA. I soo haven't complete her detail job description. I feel so laidback. nananana nananana hey jude...

Help! my motivational varies like the stock market. unpredictable. I was joking with Misss Atq, the ex-girlfriend. won't it be better if i jump down a building or better still collapse while on stage for something. What will the header of the story be? "Poly Boy Social Activitst died without living his dream" okay. We all live in a yellow submarine. yellow submarine. yellow submarine.

Tomorrow never knows.

-p.s.- Incase u dint know the bold words are songs from the beatles.

Today is such a nice day despite me realizing I’ve finished an entire box of death-sticks in a day?

I was supposed to have dinner with my primary-secondary school friend. As always, last meeting our initial timing of meeting at 5 was on the day delayed to 7pm because I had a last minute meeting with one of my directors. So here I went to the café beside substation. Nice quiet and arty ambience. When he gave me a copy of his IC, I asked, hey, why is your race not Peranakan? His reply was that Peranakan is not acknowledge as an official race.

“That’s so stupid”, my reply was. The face of Singapore Tourism Board is Peranakan. There is a museum and even an Association. Stupid stupid stupid.

1830- I received a sms that my friend’s aunt was admitted into a hospital. That’s means I’m free. The next thing I knew was I was at Sensation 7, a vegetarian and nyona restaurant at Madras Street. That ended at 2000hr. I actually gave a presentation on the company which I told myself not to. Somehow, the place reminds me when I went organic at Fortune Centre

1010hr- While walking beside Tekka Market, guess what, a “girl” tired to pick me up. Please note the inverted comers. Well, I panicked and walk so damn fast.

1050hr- When I reached home, I was telling my mum stories.

1130hr- I reached a call from Mayor Zainul. I don’t know why I call him that, not SMS Zainul, Zainul Abideen or Mr Zainul. Imran Ajmain calls him sugar-daddy. Opps.

It was a brief but effective conversation. It was nice =)

He was asking so what are you doing now and I said I just reach home. The common thing for him to ask was from where and why so late. I then said, I had a meeting with one of my Directors. The next common thing for him to ask is? That’s right, you guess it correctly. One point for you. He asked who. I said, Alvin, Founder of The Necessary Stage.

I have no school nor plans tomorrow. wohhoooooooooohooo

1210- ended this blog.

I feel like listening songs on the Turntable and drinking tea.

oh my. its 4am and the rain is falling. going to sleep perhaps that is my calling.

in what i do, all i do, school and work, the stress erupts because of these roller coaster emotions racing in me. it is so easy to put on a facade, a smile but to really feel satisfied is soo very difficult. any suggestions.

im heading to substation tomorrow. i so love that area. the architecture of Stanford House and the vivid Peranakan Museum added the classy colonial feel while Timbre rocks the street. What i feel like doing is to take to lay down in the middle of Armenia Street, on the rough road surface while the lights of that museum glow on me.

A victim of Monday blues, i was. I think the only effective thing i did was to sign and chop many documents. bored i am. I have two very very important meeting this week which i really really hope for the best. one at AIA building and the other in MICA.

im irritated that my name cards ran out and i dont know where is that self-painted cardholder of mine. i had to print on photo paper and manually cut them. pure irritating

where is that lighter of mine..

Im so stunned at the number of smokes i have. oh my. ive been getting headaches frequently and feeling so darn tired lately. well, let me distract myself..

Facebook is scary. I put my status as Faris has work life imbalance and one of my Board of Directors message me to rest. You know.. those instant chat thingy. Well, I had lunch with a good friend of mine from primary and secondary school and she uploaded an album called Faris is Hot. Irritating you know! I remember recently, I had to confiscate her camera when I invited her to Indochin Forbidden City for an event launch by One Singapore’s whose President is Vernetta and there were a lot of celebs there. Also, I think my facebook is account is getting out of hand. Too many tagging is going on.

I gave a talk/speech on the Science of Love-Match Making. I know this is abit far fetch to the many Arts, Environment and youth development talks I usually gave. It was for Public Speaking class. Well, it was flooded with a lot of pure Bull.

TGIF is not in my vocab. After meeting someone at Ritz Carlton, I headed to coffee at Arab Street with Imran Ajmain who went gaga when I said I cannot speak malay for nuts. He is helping with the Museum Bus and the music component of the company. After that, I was at Aloha for this candle-lit reception with 8 skirted tables, fresh flowers, background music of Alizee and dazzling belly dancing.

You may not believe this but im beside mum now on her bed and our eyes seemed glued on this movie HBO Family. Its about fairies. How cute is that.

I just achew (sneeze) and I saw his bar of chocolates on the table. Why does she always hide them from me !!

Here i am. sipping my Asam tea. what a week. I had many many meetings. National Arts Council, MICA, Kallang CC, Marks Burnett Productions @ Sentosa and others which i cannot remember at the moment. I received 3invites for the 26 but have to cancel because my cousin is getting married. I have my Board meeting on Sunday so I have to draft out soo many reports for that. The only fun of work is creating a 400k proposal for Museum on Wheels. How cool is that. rite.. What a week.

I was in class for Public Speaking and was like catching up on Admin stuff. Well, a few of my classmates saw some documents like my directors particulars etc. and they began asking all kind of questions. Your office is at Upper Circular Road, very expensive rite? So how much do you earn? So it's your own company?

Yesterday i was meeting up with my Relationship Manager at DBS. She is this 23year old and she is hott hott hott. She is an indonesian. Spent her primary sch education in Singapore before heading to the states and just came back to singapore last year. She stays in Orchard. From her crystal outlook and elegant style, it can be inferred that she is well to do and surrounded by posh riches. She informed that she never took the train before. oh my gosh..

Haha. faris seems to enjoy drooling over beauties (including that girl from public speaking class). However, i am insecure and emotionally cannot afford a girlfriend.

talking about public speaking class, some people were talking about sex. such an interesting topic rite.. somehow the fact of me being a virgin entered this overly stressful mind of mine. I want to preserve that. haha. faris respect girls too much but scared to be attached? how how how?

im suffering from work life imbalance !

Okay im gonna seduce this cigarette now. talking abt that, someone was asking why dont i quit. spontaneously my lips vibrated to say if i do i have nothin. waht a thing to say. lol

wewewewewe. My mum asked why is the backside of the aircon remote removed. I replied, ask Salleh. I condone sodomy.

today. i sent the imaginary middle finger to someone who said: i dont see the significance of what you are doing. i simply dint reply the email.

anyway, something good happened today. i received an invite to represent to attend a conference in Indonesia. The last time was last year when i went to korea for 3weeks, it was also foc. excellent timing somemore. ill bully my staff with more work.

the dark side

I'm about to call it a night while white air lingers from my lips. I am about to drug myself in the daily remedy of 5 death sticks just to close my eyes. I sleep with worry and wake up even worse.

why is faris still single? Because he cannot emotionally afford one. I do not have flings nor do i have friends with benefits. To think about it, my last 3gfs all shed tears of joy at least once. In my earlier postings, i talk about this certain person. Well, she is attached. She is just an eye candy. I enjoy looking at her. She is pretty. However, i wont dare touch.

Earlier the month, i thought of doing something nice which was to introduce a "friend-brother" to a cousin of mine. things dint work out. i still dont understand why is he angry at me.

I attended this talk recently about work-life balance and it caught me pondering. i work too much. Why do i do what i do? Why do i help others if i need to help others? to help others to help yourself? errr Faris is a complicated creature. It is inevitable that i endure an emo mood at least once a week. Sometimes with thoughts of death. muahaha. once someone told me that death will cause more impact to society than what you can achieve in the world. somehow its true but i still have my ugama.

my week

The melodies of Beatles are ringing to ears while my fingers dance on this keyboard.

Sometimes, it feels so fake to put on a smile pretending all is well but in actual fact things can be better. Well, things can always be better. So when is it sufficient? I just realized that work never ends. Being a CEO at the age of 20 is not an easy task, mind you. There will be an answer, let it be. let it be. let it be.

A child dies of poverty every 3 seconds. 80% of the entire world does not eat with folk and spoon. On Tuesday, i was at Indochin Forbidden City for an exclusive party cum launch of a campaign. It was at the invite of Michael Switow, founder of One Singapore who i had a lunch meeting the week before. Well, One Singapore whose President now is Venetta Lopez organises this annual Stand Up Campaign. Last year, 4000 people stand up against poverty. I was rather pissed as they were only from RJ, Hwa Chong etc. you get the picture? well, i agreed to assist on a personal capacity. I wanted more neighbourhood students to be involved. Come together. Come together. Come together.

On Thursday, i had this 4hour meeting with Alvin from Necessary Stage. Just two of us over ice water. We ranted about our dislikes in society and how to work together. It was very amusing on how he started his company. He made my day by giving the best compliment in the entire year, "from your documents and presentation, you have this sense of intelligence which academic grades cannot define". Hey jude....

im tired.

When you are schooling and starting a company, you have very little time for yourself to just let loose. My day started at 0730 and ended at 0030. i dont want to do the math. Sometimes it feels like im suffering here while i managed to pull of a smile so people think im alrite. Honestly, I'm exhausted. The worse thing is to be negatively labeled or judged.

Oh yes. I was at Simpang Bedok for a very enlightening meeting with Michael Switow, Founder of One Singapore. It was just the two of us and i sense that my Cocoa drink has alcohol in it after half of the watery substance swim passed my gullet. Bourbon? We are going to collaborateeeeee

Tomorrow or rather today it will start at 9 followed by somethingy i have to do at YMCA. I then have to rush to the not very easily accessible government building in the middle of Toa Payoh and Novena. It is above the hill.

my eyes will close its lid and switch on dreamland mood now. good nite world.

day

Tiring tiring day and it is making my eyes teary now. i think there is this relation with coughing and drinking too much coffee.

I hate my Nokia phone. What a day. Had two classes. After my 9-11am class, i had to rush to Serangoon Gardens for a very important lunch appointment before heading to class again from 2-4. I then went to Giant to get a cheap temp phone before heading to Yishun-Pasir Ris-Punggol-Tampiness-Seletar-Tamp again before heading back home to Pasir Ris. Imagine me not driving? crazy. I reach home at 1.30.

The Board of Directors are sitting in this Sun while Sat, I have the SA AGM and also Creative@Home Presents series. Oh my.

An irritating person worsen my day with some comments online.

wii

I have found a new way to exercise- Wii. Simply addictive.

Driving

I can drive. I can drive. I can drive.I can drive. I can drive. I can drive.I can drive. I can drive. I can drive.I can drive. I can drive. I can drive.I can drive. I can drive. I can drive.I can drive.

Raffles City and ahbengs

I go to Raffles City alot which is my one stop place for everything. When i meet people above me, it will be at Coffee Club. If on par or under me, then it will be casual Starbucks. When i'm hungry, spicy Thai Express will burn my taste buds.

Anyway, I was there for i cannot remember what reason. I was in my YSL jacket which is zipper and not buttons based. That allows me to switch from slack to smart in a second.

Just few metres off Robinsons, i heard someone saying, "is that Faris?" I continued walking only hear my name being called again and again.

Ahbengs: Hi Faris. Do you remember us from Siglap?

Faris : Yes (actually- vaguely but you know..)

Ahbengs: Well, before you caught us for smoking

Faris : (had the feeling something negative is gonna happened. but...)

Ahbengs: We want to say thank you. During that time we were anal about it and made your job difficult. We now are grateful and if it wasnt for you we won't be who we are now and wont stopped smoking.

Faris:

Love

While I was hugging my pillow in the morning, I had a strange yet fascinating dream.

There was this lightly bronze complexion feminine creature I was to be match made with. Her age was 17. Malaysian was her nationality. Perhaps I was too stunned to remember her name. Her crystal eyes were dazzling with an attractive shine. The individual had vivid features and when I first saw her, I was like omgoshh. When I first lay eyes on her, I knew she was the one. There was an agreement to be married in 5 years. We hit it off straight from the start. The dream continued with family functions we attended such as me meeting her family and all. We were always clinging together and enjoying each other presence. I do not remember exactly the motions of the illustrations in my head. However, I remember the emotions.

Soon my eyes woke up and a sparkled smile lit up. I soon embraced reality that the fairytale seemed like a nice movie or novel. Perhaps it was a sign to encourage myself to hack care about the social-life and love-life which I am currently deprived off. When the time come, ill just get matchmake. I’m happy that my parents are less conservative than my external family. The choice is really mine to make.

On the topic of love life- I always find it very complex. Just having the heart beat is nice.

Well, let me share about this girl who is in a class of mine. She represents the art of simplicity. And god is my witness when I said her smile is so wicked. Wicked because it cast a spell on me? Just looking at her made my heart smile so much. My brain toyed with the thoughts of me asking her out. Two ideas I will share. The first being, “can I bring you to the Singapore Flyer”. Another one was to give her a James Blunt concert ticket. Well, I tried my luck trying to communicate through online means. No reply. I know my attempts contradicted the module we are taking- Public speaking. And if you may be thinking, I did have the thought of reciting an impromptu speech about love and link it to her. Flowers blossom to imitate her beauty. Lol.

Anyway, part of me just prefers having this infatuation racing in me. I think the word is infatuation? Perhaps the busy schedule makes me scared of pursuing. I very much prefer being led on. I know im the guy but I’m tired of trying to impress. I prefer to just pamper.

Busy busy week. This week I told myself that this week is to reenergize my brain and network.

About school I have completed two out of 3 individual projects which are due on 30^th May? Haha.

I attended this Focus Group Discussion led by Gillian Koh. The topic was Singapore 2030? The social landscape. Such an intellectually fun discussion. There were many familiar faces around. On Friday I was to attend this Art for Racial Harmony conference. I skipped it and was too tired. To make me feel better, my excuse to myself was the organizers dint reply to my RSVP.

On Friday also i had a coffee meeting with this indian lady who i so need her to be on my Board. She is on Lasalle and Singapore Environment Council's board. To think about it, i need her to be chair. lol.

Mothers Day

Well, I’m eating Myojo tom yam at home. My mum is crusing and visiting over 10 countries in Europe during her escapade.

Pangea Day

Once upon a time, all land on earth super continent

our modern world is divded by borders, injustice, fear, mistrust, violence, poverty. Imagine something different. Millions of people around the world have come together to see the earth in each other's eyes. Pangea Day is the showcase of 5mins films with the title, "what i want to tell the world".


http://www.pangeaday.org/filmDetail.php?id=92

brother

I feel abit irritated at my bro. just break up with his gf less than a month ago and now he has someone else?

He used to joke with his friends that he is taking a triple degree. Economics, Business and Lyn*. Accordingly to a friend of his, Lyn thought Paris was in UK. Gosh..

gymming

In my attempts to shape popping biceps and a hunk figure, I’ve been going to the gym/exercising once every three days since last month. However, my weight is still the same. Irritant.

Cabinet reshuffle

Is it teak or timber? Well, hopefully it is thick with governance without any dirty laundry. Change is fun. Change is exciting. However, I realized that there is currently only one parliamentary secretary while the rest are his “senior”. Another thing is that there seemed to be too many shared portfolio. Somehow, it minimize opportunities, exposure for others and quality of work?

Politics shapes our everyday lives but majority of us couldn’t care less. I was in the car and my brother wasn’t able to name more than 7 ministries! And he is a scholar. *eyebrow goes up*

Blogging again

Marijuana flavoured lollipops, edible lingerie, the element Californium are examples of fun stuff when I blogged. Well, those were the days

I used to be an avid blogger that enjoy playing with words and ranting on the many irritants life brings. My blogging energy is like an unpredictable stock market. Sometimes im tempted to write. While others, I prefer creeping in silence. Perhaps, I don’t seem to have the stamina to continue the journey. Hopefully this time round, it will be different.